Isn't it funny how different people perceive weight? This struck me this morning after I weighed in at the school nurse's office in front of two other women.
My work implemented a Wellness Committee last year in order to help the school employees adopt a healthier life style. Although they do care about our health, I think it is mostly to help with insurance costs. In order to get the lower insurance coverage (a whopping $750 difference a year), I have to earn a certain number of points. Points are earned by exercising, doing different school sponsored health activities, etc. This year, I was lucky enough to earn the cheaper rate because my height, weight, and
BMI was all within normal limits. Whew!
All of this being said, I was asked to join the Wellness Committee last week. One of the other members dropped out. This isn't a big honor or anything, but I am happy they asked me! The committee helps motivates the rest of the staff to participate in the events. It's the little things that make me happy! I am hoping it will get me in gear to lose a few pounds.
One of the Wellness Committee plans was to do a "Maintain, Don't Gain" program over the holidays. From Nov. 18 - Jan. 1 you are only allowed to gain 2 lbs. If you stay within these limits, you earn 20 points. I decided to go ahead and do it even though I was terrified to jump on the scale.
This brings me back to how different people perceive weight....
I feel fat today. My clothes don't feel good on me. I don't think I look cute or pretty. I feel kind of sad. I didn't want to step on the scale after eating breakfast and stopping at Starbucks for a Skinny Vanilla Latte. But, I did it.
There were two other women in the nurses office as I complained of getting on the scale. They both said, "Are you kidding? I would kill to look like you! You have nothing to complain about." In my head, I thought, "what? you want to look fat?"
This made me realize something. I may think I am fat (since I am fitting into my "fat pants" quite well these days) but to others who struggle with much greater weight issues, I am not. Even by health standards, I am healthy. So why is it that women everywhere (including me) beat themselves down when they aren't a small size? Shouldn't I/we be happy we are healthy and focus on improvement rather than personal hate?
So, with all of this being said, I am not only going to try not to gain any more weight over the holiday season, but I am going to try to lose a few pounds too. Nothing drastic, crazy, or depriving (everyone knows this girl loves her sweets!!!), but I am going to make an effort to watch what I eat and exercise more. But, after this morning's little reminder that the grass is always greener on the other side, I am going to also try to appreciate what I am now.